Ironically, I was in fact, “high,” when the conception for this blog sparked up in my mind. I’m not a huge fan of the word “HIGH” because I don’t believe it accurately describes what happens after consuming cannabis, but I’ll elaborate on that more another day.
Growing up my dad was the health nut. Always talking about supplements, Barley Green and alternative botanical solutions for curing diseases. I thought he was a little whacko honestly.
He grew echinacea in the backyard and tended to a huge garden almost every day after he came home from work. At the time, I did not fully understand the impact he would have on my life, but today, I could not be more grateful for the influence in my childhood years.
In high school, I remember my first diet and my first thoughts about my physical appearance. Being half Brazilian I’ve always had a womanly figure, even in middle school, and curves for days. I didn’t appreciate them at all. I hated them. I didn’t like much about my body. I straightened my wild curls, ate laxatives and even went to the tanning bed, all in an effort to change what I looked like because deep down, I had no idea how to appreciate my body.
Fast forward to after college and about 3,426 diets later, I moved to San Diego, a part of the country that opened my eyes to a lot of new things. I had never seen a more fit community of people in my life! People were always working out, taking care of their bodies, and I discovered even more than I did as a child its importance. Then add in medical weed (which I’ll more often than not refer to as cannabis moving forward) into the picture. I share more about my cannabis journey here, so be sure to give that a read. In January 2017, after many diets, several jobs and what seemed like an ever-increasing inability to focus on anything for more than 30 minutes I decided that I needed to make a change.
Enter cannabis from stage left.
I drove a couple of blocks from my place to try and get a medical marijuana card. The whole process took maybe 30 minutes. I somehow managed to convinced a couple of friends to come with me to a dispensary for the first time. That experience is for a whole other blog post.
My previous experiences with cannabis up until this past year were really few and far between. I’d tried it maybe once in high school, and I don’t think it worked. One time in Brazil where I get incredibly sick and once in San Diego when I got so paranoid that I lied to my Uber driver telling him to take me back to where I was because I left something but, in reality, it was because I felt so uncomfortable being in the car with him. I went inside to grab my “lost item” and never came back.
After about a couple of months, digging into research and trying to understand exactly what this incredible plant was all about I started to notice some pretty huge shifts. It was helping me focus and get things done. I can’t tell you the number of times I found myself in a cleaning frenzy even managing to organize my bookshelf, dresser, and closet by color. Which, if you know me, I’d tell you that was absolute insanity.
Beyond the focus, my creativity was flourishing. Ideation has always been a strength of mine, but the connections and conceptual synthesizing were on a whole other level. The most significant shifts had everything to do with spirituality and my mindset.
I slowly began to develop and deepen my understanding of what spirituality meant in my life and understand it in a way I have never been able to. I grew up in a relatively conservative Christian home and many ideas and beliefs that had been impressed on me as a child, no longer resonated with me, but faith was always going to be a part of my life. I began to educate myself and genuinely start enjoying my body, learning how to take care of it with whole food, exercise, and meditation and embracing my spiritual journey at its current state.
I’ve been ruminating and dreaming of what I want this platform to be. I started writing this post in October of 2017 and have been too much of a pansy to hit the publish button. Having spent these last several months taking the time to understand better what cannabis is, the various methods of consumption and how it affects me I’ve come to find a new appreciation and understanding for why so many are fighting hard to educate and reduce the stigma that’s has surrounded this plant for years.
I’ve only told a handful of people due to this very fear of immediately being put into a particular stereotype. It’s sad really, but the reality. But it’s time, time for me to share my journey and hopefully, this helps someone else that is here on earth trying to figure all this out too.
I never considered what customizing my wellness approach could do for me. Over the last year I’ve taken up an interest in nutrition again, but with fresh eyes and a new excitement to make this simpler for people.
So here we are. Welcome to Holistica Wellness. My intention for this space to be a place where we explore areas like nutrition, mental health, self-care and the impact it all has on our lives. This is a destination where cannabis is intentionally used to make our lives better and help us uncover our highest self. It’s a place where boundaries prevail and showing up as your authentic self is all the rage. This is going to be quite the journey, and while I am absolutely terrified to step into this, I am beyond excited for you to join me.